Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Getting Back to Making Art

Since I quit my job in January of 2013 I've been healing. I was left physically, mentally, and emotionally ill to the point that I sincerely believe that if I had stayed much longer I would have ended up in the hospital.

But, I didn't and I've spent the time since healing in a very deliberate sort of way, trying to listen to what my body, my heart, and my mind needed to become whole again. I've had so much help and support in this from my Honey and I feel like I'm almost there.

I haven't shared much of what I've been dealing with except with those closest to me. I have shared bits and pieces with friends and family, just to let them know how I am because they care. Being too needy is a good way to destroy relationships.

One thing that happened at that old job was that I felt my creativity was prostituted, even stolen, for someone else's agenda leaving nothing left for me. What I offered was also often treated as cheap and only as valuable as they decided it was. I can't tell you how many times I heard the phrase "You're really creative, but..." I hung on to the scraps that were left, but nurturing one's personal creativity back to health is a grieving process as well as kind of like nurturing my body back to health. It can't be rushed. It takes as long as it takes.

• I continued doing my crochet and even found I was again able to do the work to publish the designs last fall. Doing handwork like crochet and yarn spinning was therapeutic and one of the ways I was able hang onto the scraps of my creativity that were left. Getting back to publishing was a sign that my brain could once again handle more complex tasks.

• I took classes to help revive my creative spirit and did a little art journaling. The journaling was helpful although I'm not really that kind of artist. I was able to use it occasionally to assess where I was at. It could be very revealing and I valued that. One thing that kept coming up that I couldn't figure out was that I had clearly "lost my voice." I needed to figure out how to find my own voice again.

• I decided this January that my word for the year is "Reclamation." I'm finally well enough to reclaim ownership of my creative voice, all the way through from design to art. Look out, here I come!!

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Belonging

Here's a journal page I started in April but couldn't finish until today. It's called "Belonging."


Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Thought for the Day

Some artists begin as mission-driven but get tricked into being career-driven.
~ Andrew Simonet

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Thought for the Day

"A country remains poor in wealth, both materially and intellectually, if it does not develop its handicrafts and its industries and lives a lazy parasitic life by importing all the manufactured articles from the outside." -Mahatma Gandhi

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Bookbinding and Creativity Packs

Creativity packs, especially fiber based ones, excite me. I found this one from Painters Threads Collection at Blue Twig Studio.

Creativity Pack opened up and prepped.
I was so excited when I got it that I immediately opened it up and started separating things out. I had it all prepped before I thought to take a picture of it for you. When I received it, the stabilizer was a 4"x6" sheet (which I cut in half) and the yarns were gathered together in one hank.

To the pack I added some beads to add a bit of extra sparkle. When I was done embellishing the cover, I lined them with some scrap fabric and added some Canson XL Multi-Media paper for the pages.

I used the flat tape to reenforce the binding edges and left one of them extra long to act as a bookmark. The binding was done with some of the yarn from the pack.
The finished book.
The finished book is about 3" wide, 4" tall, and about 1/2" thick. Everything is sewn and the only glue used was on the knots to ensure they don't come undone.

There are some creativity packs from Treenway, too. I might have to try one of them next.

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

Thought for the Day

The greatest good you can do for another is not just share your riches, but to reveal to him his own.
-Benjamin Disraeli